Maybe I am sick. I haven't been feeling well most of the day. I've been blaming most of it on how dry it is in here mixed with stupid girly habit week, but maybe I am sick. All I know is that everything is making me SO ANGRY right now.
Like... even things that shouldn't make me angry. I was reading a thread from Luceti and giggling over it and enjoying it and then suddenly I was all: WHY WASN'T I APART OF THIS THREAD HOW DARE THEY HAVE FUN AND I DON'T GET TO HAVE FUN! I SHOULD HAVE BEEN IN ON THAT! And there was NO reason for Vash to have been there. And I just... wanted to punch the computer screen.
And I felt like I needed to have the first temputantram I've ever thrown over a video game since I was six. Casey and I were playing Mario Kart Wii and I was just getting more and more ANGRY. Usually if I say get hit over and over with no chance ot recover I either laugh it off or go: O_o and then try to get back at the people who hit me. Oh no. Today I sat, stewing, and swearing like a salior. I was trying not to scream and give into the desire to chuck the controller at the television because my sister was still having fun. Except keeping all that anger was making my upset stomach start churning more.
I really wish everything wasn't making me so angry right now. Like just not even getting tags to answer is making me want to scream and cry. I should probably just go to bed before I snap at someone who doesn't deserve it. I've done that before while on my period and always feel horrible about it when I do and I'm not even HALF as bad as I feel right now.
Of course, I'm also angry because I can't sleep. I'm so angry over everything else I'm all worked up and twitchy. I know I'd just lay in bed hating everything. And the poor cat. Who I usually like her requests of petting would probably get shoved off the bed.
...okay. Not really. I doubt I could actually get to that point of anger even if I tried, but I would be horribly pissed at her - as I'm getting angry just joking about it. Ughhghiahrear this is not good.